here's to new begings

:D

i'll wake up early and go to the library.

yeah, i just woke up
its half past 5.

i have so much work to do :(
maybe i should stop going out.

NAAAAAAAH

www.ghxststories.wordpress.com

i'm getting rather into this story, i really hope i can keep it going!

they come out of nowhere and remind you about being alone forever.

oh well, at least me and Natalie are going down forever.

relationships, growing up, college, being serious, trying to impress people.

when you have friends like these and memories like this :)



being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up, these are the best days of our lives.

i still can't believe Astoria is nearly gone, Demolition on Wednesday, Hot Damn! on friday, saturday afterskool, bournemouth on sunday, kris roe and crank on monday, yaaay :D

:D

Here in these deep city lights
Girl could get lost tonight
I'm finding every reason to be gone
There's nothing here to hold on to
Could i hold you?
Calling out somebody save me i feel like i'm fading away
Am i gone?
Calling out somebody save me i feel like i'm fading

i feel like i could run away deep into the night and be swallowed up by city lights, and noone would notice i'm gone.

but i like this feeling, i like it alot.

i only want to write in pencil, so i can erase and start again.

if only life was pencil not pen.

However I feel like Hollywood sells America differently to what it really is, it uses it as a propaganda tool to create a perfect capitalist dream. However when we look at the more independent American films, which are not Hollywood blockbusters, we see a real view of America and this is what I want to learn about and get a greater understanding. Directors such as Oliver Stone, Kevin Smith, and Peter Joseph all strive to show a more realistic vision of America.

yeah, i wrote this in an essay and had to take it out but wanted to throw it in somewhere so i'll put it here for now.

tomorrow i shall go into town
send off the shoes i sold on eBay
join the library (after saying this for months i will!)
buy a decent notebook + some really cool pens.
come home, sell some shit on eBay
and FINALLY finish my personal statement.

yes.

and all i want to do is hide from the world, listen to beautiful music and write.

i might do just that.
i just need somewhere to hide.

on natural world :D

i'm so happy bbc iplayer works for me again.

i should update about my life, but i can't be bothered to just now.

http://www.flyworld.com/index.html

the fact i write 100x better by hand then on computer, this would be PERFECT.

its just such a cool idea!!!

Whatever this becomes
Whatever words I say
We are the fortunate ones...
And when the days are done
I won't forget
All I see in you and me
Is a light in the dark of humanity
And when the days are done
I won't forget
Two hour drives
Are two hours alone
But two hour drives
Are better than home 

please always know you have my heart.

holy shit



so fucking true

and now i've been doing these all day
( tehehehe )

1. Wes Eisold has saved my life on more occations than i can count.

2. Budweiser is my choice of beer.

3. Southern Comfort and Lemonade is my choice of spirit.

4. Bethany Collins, Lucy Miller and Alice Bridges are my first REAL best friends.

5. I changed my name to leave things in my past.

6. I have to watch the news at least once a day, i can not stand not knowing what is going on in the world.

7. I have the biggest girl crush on Regina Spektor.

8. I update my livejournal almost every single day.

9. My real love/passion is Marine biology

10. Before i die i will swim with sharks, Drive an F1 car and get a novel published

11. Baseball is my number one sport, Chicago Cubs are my team.

12. From the 1st to the 10th of september i was in disney world Florida with my best friend and it was thte best week of my life.

13. My mother lives in Belgium and my Father spends 6 months of the year in Denver, Colarado.

14. Michael Buble, Louis Thereoux and Seth Rogen are my three favourite men

15. I am passionatly obsessed with Chicago

16. I am applying to do a joint film studies and American History course at uni.

17. I don't think i'll get in.

18. i am strangley obsessed with other countries politics, but take little notice in our own.

19. I masturbate, fart, shit and burp, and i will be open about it.

20. Zombie films are my "Thing" and i have been watching/collecting them since the age of 12.

21. I cried for hours over the walking dead 8.

22. Z-day will happen.

23. i have run out of places i want to visit, i'm starting to just go back.

24. I have lived in 9 houses, 3 countries and been to 6 schools.

25. Me and my Mum, Sister and Daddy have been through it all, and we are all so close because of it.

26. I can not have children natureally

27. My dad taught me so much about films, but i have taught myself even more in the past 3 years.

28. Me and my dad build hot rods, its the coolest hobby ever.

29. I hate myself more than people persieve.

30. i only regret one thing in life.

31. the starting line are my all time favourite band.

32. I will always be there for my friends, no matter what time, how far away or whatever it is, i will be there.

33. Star wars is the best triology ever.

34. Empire strikes back is probably my favourite..

35. I have an unexplainable transatlantic lust which is killing me every single day.

36. creative writing is the only thing i think i am good at.

37. i am adicted to eBay, its the only way i make money

38, people think i am a posh rich kid, they really couldn't be any more wrong.

39. i am from London, it doesn't matter how many places i have lived it will always be my home.

40. i have given up on romantic love.

41. When i grow big i want to own my own cinema.

42. I am doing a National Diploma in Media: tv & Film production, but i don't think i want to do that in life.

43. ALL my money goes on films, i still buy VHS & own over 300 DVDs.

44. i HATE drugs.

45. my body clock is set on American time, it wont change.

46. i hoard things like a bit of a mental person, my bedroom is FULL of random memories and junk.

47. i look down on people who don't use (or appreciate) apple mac.

48. True romance is my favourite film ever.

49. Pop punk forever.

50. the team, and extened team are the only thing keeping me here.

no more.


i 100% miss disney and Beth more than life itself.

bring on winter wonderland



i miss this more than anything in the world.

I am sharing a microwave meal for 2 with my dad, i am waiting for a documentry on child abuse to be on, i am listening to michael buble + frank sinatra playlist, star wars is my favourite thing in the world and i spend all my money on comics.